The Ramblings of Denira

Have ever felt just completely helpless? Helpless…that one word describes how I feel lately. There are so many hurting people in my life right now and I feel like there’s nothing I can do. I hate it!! I just want to help…I just want to fix things. I think that I’m a bit of a control freak at times and when things are out of my control and I cannot fix something it drives me crazy. You know the saying….”when it rains it pours…” that’s how things are right now. There are people in my life right now that are dealing with HUGE issues and although nothing has directly happened to Bobby or myself, I am so effected by it. I’m confused and so overwhelmed with the feeling of helplessness. But all at the same time…I’ve realized how blessed I am and how thankful I am for what I have. God has blessed me so much with so many things. From the amazing family I have, to the amazing man I can share my life with, my awesome friends, a great job, a roof over my head, …etc…. I have all that I need. He has given it all to me despite me and my unworthiness. I know that I take these things for granted way to much, and I hope that through this all I can learn not to do that anymore.

I know that God is in control over these situations and that there is a purpose for each of them. That is where I find my peace and my comfort. So all I know to do during these times is to go to Him. I say all of the above and then I realize…there is something I can do…the most important thing and that’s Prayer! I think sometimes we forget the power of Prayer and the power of God. If we honestly go to Him with everything…then we are not helpless, we are doing exactly what we suppose to do and that is trusting that He knows what is best and that He will take care of us all. Bobby always refers to the verse in the Bible that says that “He holds all things together”. How true is that!!! I know that although I still feel helpless, prayer is the only thing and the MOST important thing I can do. So to Him i run with this. I just wanted to share that with everyone….maybe more for myself than anyone else….but just remember even when you feel helpless….you can always pray, which is the best thing you can do anyway!!!

Here’s just a quick run down on whats been going on….

** Thanksgiving was great, got to spend time with my family and friends which is always fun!!
** Went to see Cinderella at the OR playhouse. It was great!!!! Very well done, but obviously low budget!!!
** Got the Christmas tree and decorations up finally!!
** Skipped out on Black Friday shopping because the deals were not that good!
** Bobby preached on Sunday and did an amazing job!!!
** Went to Fantasy of Trees for the first time this year….really enjoyed it!!!
** Kay’s surgery went great and she is doing very well!!
** Deena and I got the chance to really serve one of our girls this week by cleaning her REALLY messy room!!!! It was a lot of work, but also a lot of fun!!
** Can’t wait till Christmas break…I think I only have 3 more full weeks of work!! )

That’s it for now!!!

So last night I started putting some Christmas music on my IPOD. I did not get very far though, because my mind just froze and I couldn’t think of more than like 5 Christmas songs…..it was crazy. So anyway…this is what I want to know. What are some of your favorite Christmas songs and who sings them??? I need to build up my Christmas play list for the next couple of weeks!!!!

I’m not the biggest fan of church dramas. I use to be really into them, but for some reason in the past couple of years it’s just not been my thing. However some of our students, led by Kay, did the following drama. It’s life changing if you watch it. So take the time just to sit back, watch it and think about it. Not only was it so well done by the students, but the message that it sends is so powerful!!

Enjoy

Everyone go to this link…this is hilarious…..

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=9557846129

you might have to cut and copy…

Yesterday was a rough day for me. First off, I didn’t feel good at all. My stomach was in knots all day and I had a terrible headache. I also got some news that I did not want to hear during the day. So needless to say, I was so ready just to get home and get to bed and start over today. Bobby had taken the day off work so he was going to be home when I got home. On my way to the house I called him and he said that he had not done anything but just lay around all day. Part of me was happy that he had a day off, but then part of me thought that there were so many things that he could have done around the house to help me out. Anyway, since I was feeling so bad, I decided to just let it go.

When I got home I walked through the door and laying in the floor in front of me was a card with my name on it, a 2 liter of Cherry Coke Zero (my fav drink), a bag of lime chips and salsa (my fav. snack) and a people magazine (because I’m a sucker for reading about celebrities). And the best part was…Bobby had cleaned the house and put away the laundry!!!! I know it might not seem like much, but to me it was everything!!!

Thank you Bobby for making my not so good day end up just right!!! I love you!!!

So with Thanksgiving coming up I’ve been thinking a alot about all that i have to be thankful for. Jarrett, my brother in law, spoke at Fusion the other night and talked about being thankful, so that’s made me think even more about it. I think, well I know, that a lot of times, I take for granted all the things I have in my life. There is so much to be thankful for. Here are some of the things I am thankful for…this is only a few as there are so many more.

** My relationship with God is the main thing. I am so thankful that He is who He is. That not matter what He loves me even when I am screwing up. He always forgives me when I’m being stupid and He continues to bless me when I do not deserve it.

** My amazing husband who leads me through life everyday. He’s always there for me and loves me despite my faults. We might have our moments where we disagree or fight, but at the end of the day, he’s the one that’s there and will always be. He has taught me so much about life and God and loved me more than any one person deserves!!

** My awesome family. I’m so blessed to have such amazing parents. My mom and dad go above and beyond for their children. I’m 25 years old and there’s rarely a day that goes by that I do not talk to them. I have also been blessed with the best in laws a girl could ever ask for. Bobby’s parents are amazing and have taken me in as part of their family. They are always there for us no matter what. We also have some pretty amazing nieces and nephews. And although my brother and I never see I to I, i know that if I ever really needed him he’d be there. Not to mention my awesome brother in laws!!! When it comes to family, I’ve been blessed beyond measure.

** My friends. I can remember a time that it felt like I did not have any friends that lived their lives for Christ. This was a time that was very lonely for me. Sure I had friends, but not ones on the same page as me. God has blessed me more than I could even imagine with the people that he has put into my life. I love my friends more than words could express.

There’s so many other things, and over the next week that is what I’m going to focus on. I challenge everyone to stop and spend some time looking at what there is in your life to be thankful for. So stay tuned for the continuation of this list……..

Today is Matt and Deena’s 2 year anniversary. Over the past year Matt and Deena have become 2 of mine and Bobby’s best friends!! It’s been such a fun year hanging out with them and getting to know them!!!!

Happy Anniversary you two!!! We love ya bunches!!!!

I got the chance on Thursday to finally see Relient k in concert. They are one of my all time favs!!! I have always like them, but have not had the chance to see them live. They came to Knoxville with Switchfoot and a band named Ruth. I have to say that Ruth was okay, but I really didn’t get into their music at all. And despite what everyone thinks, I’m no fan of Switchfoot! They did put on a good show, I’m just not a big fan. Relient K was great though and I’m thankful I finally got to see them!

Okay, so I must start this off by saying how much I love Christmas. It is by far my fav holiday. But tonight as I was walking through some stores and saw all the Christmas stuff I started getting so irritated. IT’S NOT EVEN THANKSGIVING YET!!!! And worse than that, i noticed that a couple of days before halloween, they had moved all the costumes and were putting out the Christmas stuff. It seriously drives me crazy. I think the thing that drives me the craziest about it is that I know the stores are not doing it to get people in the true Christmas spirit. They are doing it to get people in the christmas SHOPPING spirit… and in turn make som money!!!! AHHHH It just drives me crazy that society has made Christmas all about money!!! Yuck Yuck Yuck!!!! Okay, I’m finished ranting now!!!!