The Ramblings of Denira

I went for my 38 week check up yesterday. I’m due next Sunday so I was hoping that when I went in yesterday, my doctor would tell me something suggesting that he might come this weekend. Well……she didn’t!! I’m only dilated 1/2 centimeter….if that. Which by the way….no one told me how bad it hurts to be checked for dilation!!! Anyway…thankfully everything else looks great. I’m just ready for him to be here!!!

Do you ever feel far from God and just don’t know what to do to get closer?  Like no matter what you do it’s not good enough.  That’s where I’ve been for the past little bit.  What got me here? I’m really not sure…….just sometime over the past little bit I’ve really just quit doing the things that I need to do to be closer in my relationship with him…at times even leaving me to wonder if I really even have a relationship with him or if I’ve just been putting on a show all these years.  I think I started making it way more complicated then what it is.  I spend to much time focusing on what I am not, that I forget where I am with Him and stop working on growing with him.  Tonight I was doing some dishes and God really just started talking to me.  I just wanted to run to him like a little kid and just let Him hold me.  I know I’m emotional right now anyway….but this was from him.  I went and grabbed my Bible and sat down in the computer room and just started praying.  I just found myself confessing and just being real to Him.  I prayed that He would help me to focus on Him and commit fully to Him. To see the truth and not to make things more complicated.  I opened my Bible and found myself in Micah and read the following passage….

So this past weekend my parents came up and helped us get the nursery together. Bobby and my dad painted while mom and i put the furniture together. They were a big help and I’m so thankful that they didn’t mind spending their day helping us out. There’s no way we could have gotten in all together with out them. Saturday night Deena and Melissa came over and helped me put the bedding in the crib and fold some more clothes.

So here are some pics of the room. It’s not completely finished yet, because I still have tons of stuff that needs to be put away, but it’s a start. I still have some pictures to hang on the wall and a rug to get…but I’m so excited and just wanted to share some pics!!! Hope you like!!!

Do you remember where you were 7 years ago today? It’s a day that most of us will never forget. Hopefully, none of us will. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I was a sophomore in college and was living off campus with 3 other girls in a town house. I was getting ready to leave for class and I just happen to turn on the tv while I was fixing my hair. I was in the bathroom and heard them talking about the first tower being hit. Just as I walked out of my bathroom to see what was going on, I watched as the second plane hit the other tower. Still not really sure what was going on, or maybe I was in shock, I went ahead and got into my car and drove to UT. I went to my first class and we were all sitting there talking about what had happened. All of a sudden my professor comes in crying, shouting that they just hit the pentagon. She told us to go home and be with our families. I left the classroom and called a friend of mine who’s brother worked in the trade center, thankfully he was okay. I decided to go meet some other friends over at the UC because I just didn’t feel like being alone. When I got to the UC I experienced something that I’ll never forget….and to some it will seem like nothing. If you didn’t go to UT, you might not understand it. Let me explain a little. UT is not the world’s friendliest campus. People walk around (especially in the mornings) with their heads down looking at the ground. They do this so much that people post fliers on the ground because they are sure to be seen. Anyway…that particular day I walked into the UC and not unlike any day there were people every where. This day, was different though. People were huddled together in complete silence watching the tv’s. You could hear a pin drop in there. The only noises were sniffles of people crying. Everyone was hugging and had their arms around each other. I stopped with everyone and watched the tv’s as bush spoke and the words terrorists were said. I saw the fear in the student’s eyes around me and the sadness. I watched as a building full of students from all different backgrounds and places stood together, united as one and held on to each other in support. For some reason that made a huge impact on me and it’s something that I will never forget.

Anyway…long story short……don’t forget that day. Don’t forget where you were and what you were doing. Don’t forget the lives that were taken and the people that sacrificed their own lives to save others. I would say that I’m not the most patriotic person, but today reminds me how thankful I am to live in this country. Today I pray for the leaders of our country and the upcoming election. I pray for those who are still hurting from this day because they lost something more personal….mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, husbands and wives. And I pray that I never take this country and my freedom for granted. As cheesy and cliche as it sounds….I am proud to be an American!

I went to the Doctor yesterday for my 36 week check up. Everything looks great. His heartbeat was good and strong. She said that he is measuring at 38 weeks and probably weighs 6 1/2 to 7 lbs. He’s head down, facing the right way and has dropped some. I’m now on weekly appointments until he gets here!!!! It’ll be no time now!!!

3 years ago today Bobby and I were married in Norris at the Museum of Appalachia. It was one of the hottest days and I truly thought I would pass out standing outside in my dress. We got married in the direct sunlight and all of our bridal party was pouring sweat. It was a longer ceremony then we had planned so I’m sure everyone was becoming miserable. Despite all that though….it was the greatest day of my life. God has blessed me beyond anything I could have ever imagined when he put Bobby in my life. I’m so glad that God is in control, because I never would have been able to find a better person to be married to if it wasn’t for God placing him in my life. The past 3 years have been amazing. Yeah, we’ve had our moments where I’m sure we have both wondered to ourselves “what have I gotten myself into?” (especially in the beginning), but through good and bad we’ve continued to fall more and more in love with each other.

Happy anniversary Bobby! I love you with all my heart and am so thankful for you. You truly are my best friend and I couldn’t imagine life without you. Thank you for being patient with me and loving me more than anyone ever has. Thank you for the best 3 years of my life!

This morning we spent at the hospital. No don’t worry….everything is fine, just a little scare. Last night I noticed that Isaiah hadn’t been kicking, I was worried but not to bad because he had kicked a lot earlier in the day. Well each evening, I’m suppose to count his kicks till he gets to 10. If he doesn’t get to 10 in 2 hours then I’m suppose to call the dr. Well he didn’t last night, but I just thought it was fine since he had been so active earlier. I went to bed and then when I woke up this morning, still nothing. I went ahead and got ready for work, ate breakfast and then jumped in the car. I have about a 45 minute drive to work and he normally kicks like crazy when I’m driving. But this morning…still nothing. I got to work and decided to call my doctor when her office opened. They told me that it was probably nothing, but I needed to just head on to the hospital and get it checked out. When I got there they put me on a fetal monitor and immediately we heard his heartbeat and it was good and strong. He still wasn’t kicking, so the nurse took this instrument and put it up to my stomach and it sent a vibration through my stomach. Well this woke him up!!!! He really jumped then!!! He’s still not moving around a lot, but i have felt him since then. They said that it was probably just the position that he was in. So everything is good. Maybe I was just being a paranoid pregnant person, but I just had to get it checked out! Thank God everything is good!!! As we were sitting in the hospital room, Bobby looked over at me and said ….”you know it’s weird because really he could come at any time now”. It’s crazy to think I’m this close!!!! Yea!! I’m excited!

This weekend was alot of fun. Friday night we just hung out at the house. I am still getting over a cold so I spent the evening napping. Bobby woke me up later in the evening and cooked me dinner. He made steak, potatoes and rice. He’s such a good cook and takes such good care of me. )

Saturday I had a shower thrown by my mom and Bobby’s mom. It was so much fun. Everyone was so generous and sweet and Isaiah got so many wonderful gifts. We got our Chicco Travel System,(thanks Jeannie!!!)

Chicco High chair (thanks Deena!!!)

and our swing (thanks Melissa!!!!)

We also got tons of other things!!! I’m so excited about all the awesome gifts. I’ll post pictures later…I just haven’t loaded them on my computer yet! Thank you everyone who came and for all the awesome gifts you all gave Isaiah.

Sunday we spent the day going through our closets and getting organized and then we moved all of our clothes into our new closets because our addition is finished!!! We’re going to be moving in this week and then setting up the nursery on Saturday!!! ) I can’t wait for that!!! I also spent the day washing all of Isaiah’s clothes and hanging them up in the closet. The kid has more clothes then I do!!! It was so cute to see his little outfits hanging on the hangers in the closet. I teared up after I put the first one on the hanger!! It just makes everything more real!! I’m 36 weeks today and cannot wait for him to be here!!!!